Since before the birth of my daughter in January, the time and financial resources available for photography – going out to photograph and preparing articles and submissions – has been limited more and more. I felt as though my photographic pursuits were being squeezed through an hourglass: the freedom of time and money being nudged into an ever narrowing space with the hope that someday… someday things would loosen up again.
In some ways I felt like simply laying low for a couple of years. I let my photo association memberships go into hiatus for the next year and I haven’t renewed any subscriptions for magazines or ever a pro account with Flickr. Though I have projects on the go and a list to pursue, the restricted time for working on them (basically between 7 and 8 in the morning) has been frustrating and uninspiring. I honestly feel like just doing whatever I feel like, even if it’s just typing blog posts or preparing uploads for Flickr, and working on the business stuff when the mood strikes. But there’s the reality of a large deficit in my account that has to be made up. My wife will not look kindly upon me if next year my son’s kindergarten tuition is insufficient. So I must work in order to fill up that hole.
And then there is a sudden spark of encouragement. Today Gakujin magazine called and left a message saying they’d like to run my submission in their August issue. I’ll speak to them tomorrow but for now the news has reminded me that it is worth it to keep trying. Though the efforts rarely pay out soon (this is the third magazine to receive this submission after two previous rejections) the call that announces a turn in my fortune often comes when it is least expected and when it is most welcome.